I find the industry and the emotions surrounding our world so fascinating. Though I so desperately wish it wasn't so interesting. I mean, it's so complex and we are so marginalised, how people fear, degrade, segregate, judge and dehumanise or just generally treat us is what actually makes me love the industry but also what … Continue reading What hurt me too much to write.
"What's your exit strategy?" My most hated question, yet one that I've been non stop thinking about. Not that I want to leave my job, not at all, I love it. I've busted my ass for two years to become established and profitable. I earn great money, and turn down more work than I take. … Continue reading The next step
"How does he cope, you know, with you fucking other guys for money" said as their face conveys that the mind entertains something that is almost a joke in their eyes. They look confused in a way that could easily be confused as mocking. What the are really saying is "But how can anybody love … Continue reading But how can anyone love you?
I've always wanted to believe sex work hasn't left me jaded, that it hasn't soured my view on men, relationships and love. I didn't want to be that girl that can't trust a man because she has been the one so many have lied to their partners and fucked. How do you get it out … Continue reading Same same… But different.
Have you ever stopped to wonder why each of are views are so varied? Why one person can believe with all their heart and soul in something, and another simply thinks the first is insane? Why can some people accept sex workers and some can't? Why can some people be sex workers and others cringe? … Continue reading Midnight Musings
I find it perplexing, the thoughts that run through my head mid booking. Catching glimpses of myself in mirrors or reflective surfaces, mesmerised by my reflection because it seems so far from reality. That's me emulating the touches and movements I'd use instinctively on a lover. That's me, intimately touching a man whose name I … Continue reading Musings during the moment
"But perception is changing..." "People are much more accepting now" "Most people wouldn't have a problem with it" "People are far more open minded these days" .... Yeah, ok. These are just a few phrases I hear, often, in relation to sex work. Of course these aren't phrases that any sex worker I know would … Continue reading So the stigma is diminishing…. Right?
I find writing about sex work harder and harder. On one hand it's simply because I know so many personal people in my life read it, on the other it's simply because sex work is so normal to me, there's not so much I'm desperate to share, it's not out of the ordinary. I'm so … Continue reading What to do?
What made you want to pursue this line of work? I've always been drawn to sex and the sex industry. The mysterious and seemingly dark but alluring world of pay for pleasure always had my attention. It wasn't until I met someone in the industry that I divulged my interest and desire to start in … Continue reading The ho questions you wanna know
I raced down to the lobby to meet my client, meeting random men in the hotel lobby always makes me a tad nervous, you've no idea who it is, so you need to rely on them to discreetly catch your attention. Also men tend be terrible at following instructions, and somehow the whole scenario can … Continue reading Let me make you sweat….